30 days of BTVS, Day 8 : Favorite male character.
Spike. Basically the character was supposed to die early in season 2 (and Angelus would have been the main villain) but the fans reacted so strongly to him that they didn’t kill him… And then they brought him back twice. And then he became really important.
I love the character for all the fun parts. When he is bad in the beginning, so beautifully punk and so self-serving. When he betrays Angelus, and explains he doesn’t want the world to end because it wouldn’t be any fun, I just fell in love with him forever. I loved him even more for not helping Buffy saving the world, he was a bastard and he always knew what and who he was and you can’t not love that.
Then he came back and there was the ship. And he was kinda pathetic, but he still owned it. When he discovered he could still fight, but only against evil creatures, he was so happy. Like, Spike ? Actually a simple guy, as long as he can fight and destroy, he is a happy baby. I love how easily he manipulated the Scoobies into fighting, and almost losing to Adam (and I love how it actually made them stronger, because every plan Spike had backfired, I mean the guy is actually way better off being a hero, at least he’s got some chances to win).
Then I love how everything gets very confusing and blurry. How he loves Buffy but still is a self-serving bastard most of the time, even if he fights with the Scoobies. I love that they can’t trust him but still need him sometimes. I LOVE his relationship with Dawn and with Joyce, it is just so cute and so nice, he is actually sad when Joyce dies, and what he says about her is so simple (remember ? Simple guy) but so moving.
And he is a creep (in season 5 I actually don’t ship Spuffy at all, he is a stalker and is more obsessed than really in love). But little by little, everything changes him and he actually cares for Buffy. And for all the others too, and he wants to do the right thing, even when it’s not the self-serving thing to do. How sad he is when Buffy dies, and how he takes care of Dawn will always break my heart.
Season 6 is like a roller coaster. He gets closer to Buffy, but he still understands so much what/who he is that he knows she is using him (Rest In Peace explains their relationship at that time so perfectly). They sleep together but him he is still in love when Buffy still isn’t and this is messed up and it destroys them both.
Then there is the rape attempt. Which is very complicated, because, yeah, it is the climax of their messed up relationship. And it is awful, and I understand how Buffy can forgive him later but I don’t know if I could. And then he is horrified by what happenned (which is why the audience still loves him) and he gets away to get a soul and I was so shocked when he got one.
But no, he still hasn’t gone through enough, the soul makes him get kinda crazy, and the First tortures him, takes away his sanity, uses him. And no one trusts him because of what happened and Buffy is the only one that has faith in him. And then he has the perfect love speech to her, and then he saves the world and dies. (I mean, yeah he comes back in Angel but I still tear up when he dies in btvs.)
Even in the end he doesn’t fool himself about what he is and what is happening. I mean “I love you” “No you don’t but it’s nice to hear it” WTF WHEDON ! Even when he sacrifies himself to save the world he can’t have a little moment of peace and of illusion of love ?? (I love Buffy so much for trying though, one of her best moments).
Anyway. I have a lot of feelings about Spike. He’s come such a long way from the beginning in season 2 to the end of Angel (or even to the comics). And the path was rocky (wink wink) as hell, putting him most of the time on the edge of madness.